At this most traumatic time if my life The Murphy Report was published in Ireland. So I was surrounded by TV programmes and newspaper coverage of this age old problem of paedophilia. We all know the reasons why this is allowed to continue. The church puts up its shutters and weathers the storm of public hostility. The Church has had many centuries to work out their defence.
What they really show is their utter contempt for Christianity and the weakest, most vulnerable members of our Society. I am still deeply shocked. It was, of course, only a matter of time for the next time bomb to explode, The Cloyne Report to emerge from its State imposed coffin.
This was also the time that, one night, I looked on TV to see a film,” Deliver us from Evil.” The film was Directed by Amy Burg. I have to admit I’ve watched this film on at least 4 occasions, each time by myself as Jill refuses to watch it. The subject is appalling, but it is the subject that has affected me all my life. Yet I can watch it. I can admit to you that I always cry. I am always affected by victims and their families.
I even wrote a letter to Bob, Maria and Anne Jyono. I emailed the letter to Jeff Anderson to forward it for me, as I had no way of getting the address. He told me he would forward it for me, but as I have never received a reply, maybe they didn’t get it.
But I must say I am very disappointed. For many, many decades Ireland exported paedophile priests throughout the world. But now Ireland imports convicted paedophiles who, having served their sentences, are coming home to Ireland to re-offend. What this film did for me was to make me truly aware that I am not alone. Like many other victims, we all share the same fears. I have been advised by my Doctor, my family, the police and a Judge to get counseling. But as I have never been offered any I will go without. I seem to feel that to get counseling I am admitting that he has beaten me. No, I take the attitude that I am stronger than the after effects Robinson has left me with.
I would, hand on heart, advise anyone in my situation to watch Amy Burg’s film and to read Colm O Gorman’s book, “Beyond Belief.” This I have read 4 or 5 times. The man is an inspiration to me, his life, his strength, how he coped with such an appalling childhood. It is my belief that this man should be Ireland’s next President. That is the position I would put him in. I hope one day to meet the man.